My crazy to Amazing

This is my year of saying "No, no thank you." "No" to daily chocolate indulgence. "No" to purchasing every piece of fabric that speaks to me. "No" to collecting children's picture books because they are so cute. "No" to going to bed early after work. "No" to doing other people's work when they themselves are capable but it is easier for me to do it. "No" to clutter at home or work because I will put it away later. "No" to eating first and praying later. "No" to spending all my time sitting indoors. This is my year to say "Yes, yes please". "Yes" to healthy eating. "Yes" to completing what I have started. "Yes" to spending time on my feet and outdoors. "Yes" to loving thoughts and kind words. "Yes" to temple work. "Yes" to organizing, and preparing each day. "Yes" I can and "Yes" I will...

Yesterday at work, it was again brought to my attention, again, that I tend to react quickly to suggestions of others.  I am rather impulsive that way, or at least it seems on the surface.  A deeper look reveals that it is possible that my motivation is not altruistic.  Rather, my race to action is linked to my desire to impress. When I quickly respond, I feel like I am on top of it, obedient, ready for action.  In reality, I haven’t always weighed the consequences, considered the needs of others, and can come across as a demanding task master.  I expect other people to respond with similar compliance, without hesitation, and am surprised at any backlash. In my mind I hear thoughts like “I am not to blame I am just doing what I was told by someone of higher authority than me.” But my role isn’t to just quickly implement directions; instead it is to use my analytical skills (which I really do have), apply knowledge to the situation, and respond accordingly. That...