Living with cancer

"Oh, look at that beautiful sunset. I have cancer." "There is my friend so and so who I haven't seen for awhile. Does so and so know I have cancer?" "I just bought a car, and a new bicycle. You know you have cancer, right?!" You only have so many spoons because you have cancer, hold back."

Cancer is ever present in my daily thoughts ...how do I make it stop? I have been in mourning. Poor me.

From the depths of my soul resilience emerges. I choose or choose not. Cancer does not own me.

I act. I breathe. I consider. I do. I feel. I give. I hope. I invest. I love. I resolve. I seek. I try.

I am not a silent passenger on a runaway train. I ride the track with mindful intention, taking in the sights, the smells, the tastes, the sounds, and the touches, atuning my senses and my soul until the track is no more.

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